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    May 30

    WHEN I LOOK AT HIM

     

    Can I imagine him standing before me, speaking these words to me?

    I look at him.

    He is gentle.

    His eyes hold concern for my hurts.

    His hand steadies and reassures my flagging spirit.

    I look at him.

    He is humble.

    His gaze, his touch, show his respect for me, the time and space he wants to give me.

    And not only me.

    His arms open and I sense his love and reverence for all people—family, friends, those I find difficult to love.

    My heart becomes calm and rests in this heart, in his heart.

    He pardons, he endures the night with me, he draws me out to embrace the world in which he lives.

     
     
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     I chose this image to speak to the times I am travelling and unveiling at the moment. Skipping unknown waters rapidly yet relying so much on extraordinary and spontaneous forces. The sail is somewhat like a kite as in the Kite sailing Kitano Yacht, above. 

    The wind blows relatively faster at high altitudes and thats the concept behind this yacht. The Kitano yacht benefits from the greater wind speeds found at higher altitudes, which raises the kite high enough to catch winds that might not even exist at the water level. I feel also that am forced to move high above known waters and that the destination is in some far off planned harbour of exotic appearance.

    Moreover, sailing in shallow water and littorals is possible without any risk, thanks to a hydraulically operated centerboard. Like the yacht, I too have to rely on the centerboard who is naturally geared to get me to my proposed destination. I have to trust powers both within and without. The course of life is been navigated with the experts. I pray and wish for a stright trouble free passage.

    As with the yacht which can accommodate up to 8 passengers in sumptuous luxury, I too plan to reap some luxuries. However, am prepared to endure the voyage in the company of the chosen. Loud and trivial egotists push me right off course at the moment. I have to trust my navigator and sense of discretionary purpose. 

    Even the eco-lovers are going to love the Kitano yacht as its totally eco-friendly. Am hoping for a harmonious connection both within and outside my sphere of operation. In the meantime have to tolerate the HUGE UNKNOWN AND COST that comes with such a trip.

    Kite Sailing Kitano Yacht

     
     
     
    May 04

    GOODBYES

     
     
     
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    LEAVING
     
     
    Shredded memories and
    Trembling echoes
    Resonate of times aglow
    No more for now 
     
    Stumbling forward
    Yet gliding backward
    In a silent saturated frozen mist
    Unknown silences behold for now
     
    Anger and confusion
    Humanwebs well known
    Weaving pathways and hives 
    From the yesterdays known in the now
     
    Unacceptable absences
    Resonates with acceptance
    Clouded with saturation
    Seasoned with anticipation for now
     
    Somber dirges digested
    Calm winds blowing
    Controlled tears flowing
    Hearing eschewed just now
     
    Reality too painful
    For the youth endured
    Spirit wrenching
    Fists clenching right now
     
     
    Kneading tomorrow's dough
    Hands and hearts entrenched
    Growing with the grain
    Enough for now
     
    Reaching to the future
    Indelible footprints
    Lights surrounding
    Forgien yet not forgotten years
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     Sorry friends am struggling with my humanity....frail is but my name right now. Having had to be so brave with the Grim Reaper for the past few weeks...have had to let it flow so that I can grow more and frown less. I am hopeful because I believe there is a better place called Heaven. However, I am struggling with the suffering I am privy to especially my own. I guess all my losses are bubbling again. Bradley, I love you and I hope you are walking with us in this desert right now.